Tuesday, July 21, 2015

Be Grateful

I have been experiencing some major ear congestion and severe vertigo this weekend and it is not fun.  I've never had vertigo like this before (lots of vomiting) and the ear congestion has muffled my hearing.  I had a momentary panic thinking how my life would be like if I had vertigo on a regular basis or if I had hearing loss.

It reminds me that I take my body for granted.  And that some things are totally out of my control - and that's scary to me.  I was starting to list the "what if's" and I think the thing that devastated me the most was not being 100% well for my son, who's only turning 3 next month.  

So instead of feeding the panic and fear, I have to switch gears and think of the things that I am grateful for.

Today I am grateful for:
* being alive and in general good health despite this ear congestion and vertigo
* my husband who works hard to support us, my son who was patient enough this weekend while I tried to tell him I was feeling sick
* my friend who called for a quick chat while she was at the park with her 2 kids - she reminded me someday the kids won't be small anymore and we will find "ourselves" again
* the roof over my head, food in my belly and love in my home

I am tempted to give into the fear and panic of "what ifs" but I know I will get better.  I know most things are out of my control.  So I guess I have to ask myself - what if it's not as scary as I make it out to be?

Wednesday, July 15, 2015

Beach Therapy

My mission today was to play in the sand with my son and breathe in some salty ocean air.  It was much needed.

I feel like I'm at a crossroads with many things in my life and I really needed to get out of my head space.  There is something really therapeutic about sitting on the sand, feeling the heat of the sun on my skin, and looking out at the horizon where the sea touches the sky.  In that moment I feel and know that there is something bigger out there than myself.

And that's when I released all my stress and worries into the wind, up into the universe, a prayer to God or Mother Nature or to whoever and whatever is listening.  I chose to direct my focus to the moment.  I joined in laughter as I watched my son giggle and screech as the water tickled his feet with its ebb and flow.  We stood there hand in hand facing the ocean.

I felt lighter and re-energized.  

Sending ALOHA your way ~
xo, Yolanda

Monday, February 23, 2015

Backyard Hibiscus

I love the afternoons as the sun starts to set behind our house and the sunbeams light up my yellow hibiscus.  My skills in gardening is dismal at best so thank goodness these beauties do not need much from me to grow.  It's the only plant in my garden that is actually thriving.

Today I laid a towel down on the freshly cut grass and watched my 2 year old son, hop around, playing with rocks, sticks and flowers.  I get to listen to the birds chirping and my son laughing.  It's definitely a nice way to end the day.  I look up, breathe in the fresh air and feel the rays of the setting sun on my face.  Total bliss.